Solitude trainer

I heard that every man do change over time,
like a tree that grows and changes shape over time.
I may change, but for now, what speaks truest to me?

I work as a professional man but I cannot be at peace
I learn as a scholar but I cannot think naturally
I mingle with the modern folks but I feel like an alien
I tried to be a sociable man but it speaks against my heart
I tried to be a gentlemen but I am but not well bought up

So I took a break from my life and passively see where life takes me.
At this point, the only things that speaks my heart and let me be myself is training.
I am in solitude. away from the worldly people, worldly drama, just me in training.
There, I can let my mind go, be carefree and myself.
Like a solitude warrior, I don’t know how else I can be myself…
I suppose in time the tree will grow and shape it self once again and so will I,
but for now I can just embrace this moment which speaks truest to me.
I’m just a simple man.
Training, my home.