Losing myself

Lately in my life, I’ve been more sociable in some what ways. But i realised, even though I had met new people, can talk better and be more socially adaptable, there is something that doesn’t feel right. Having to force myself to be friendly and more sociable, kills my heart because I am not being me. Having to lie and fake myself hurts the heart. I don’t feel sincere and honest being that way.

It hurts to speak insincerely
It hurts to not speak from the heart
it hurts to be fake
It hurts to not be yourself.